sometimes i have a tendency to over-complicate things, over-think, and sometimes, it gets me into trouble. i need to work on just acting how i feel, rather than feeling how i act. i am working on it, really, i am. sometimes i suppress how i feel because i think i need to, and maybe that's why sometimes you notice an incongruity between what i say and what i do. but ultimately, what i realize more and more is this, at the end of the day, no matter how much i try to deny how i feel and what i want, i can't seem to shake the simple fact that well, i love you and i am in love with you. sometimes i tell myself i'm not, or act like i'm not, because i feel like i'm protecting myself in some way, but i'm tired of doing that. so here it is, i'm taking a risk and putting myself out there, just as you already have.
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